It has been such long since I last partied. Went to three last night, get really drunk, and wasted. Sometimes I just really envy those american kids. They could really do whatever they like to do in their life. and I just don’t have that much options. Or I don’t think I could have that much options. But don’t I?

小时候有次到好朋友家里去玩，他把老爸的书柜里面收藏的几把格斗刀拿出来给我们把玩，刀刃出鞘，漂亮的金属寒光和冰凉的质感顿时让我觉得一股杀气充满了房间。那也是第一次知道，刀，原来可以这样漂亮。让人忍不住想去拥有一把。

前日，在网上闲逛，一时手痒，买了把助开折刀(在天朝应该算作管制刀具的范畴吧)。今天到了，虽然也就刚刚够个入门级的货色，但是打开以后握在手上，感觉相当的好。黯淡的刀身，和棱角分明的血槽让我兴奋异常，一种嗜血的原始欲望不由得升起，很想将其插入另外一个生命的体内。

在房间里把玩，一不小心在手上拉出一道口子，鲜红的血顿时喷了出来，流满了手。一滴一滴滴下来，暖暖的。突然一下子感觉好真实，如大梦初醒一般。