我一直以为自己能够很坚强，可最后发现那个骗不了的人其实是我自己。

--------chat log with sun------------

me: seriously do you still believe in true love.

sun: i do believe, it is just sometimes you can not find it.

me: most of the time i suppose.

sun: but that doesn't mean it doesn't exist.

me: you think so?

sun: what's wrong with it?

me: i don't know

孙说，他觉得我活着好像在演戏给自己看一样。我说是啊，我是导演编剧加主角，演给自己看。将自己感动的稀里糊涂，却怎么也成为不了别人舞台上的主角。戯字半边虚，虚河山，虚社稷，谁知动干闹戈。